It's been a minute

And I'm *almost* back in the saddle

I was planning to bring back my Substack in April after I had had a few months to get back into work and really find a new routine as a mom of three. But the truth is I’m not sure I’ll even be “ready” by then and I certainly don’t think I’m going to feel like I have it all figured out with three boys at the ages of 6, 4, and 6 months. I think the next few years are going to feel absolutely crazy and the truth is I love to write and share with you and I kinda just thought, why not take everyone along for the ride? I have an idea as to how I’m going to share my newsletter moving forward: I plan to share my usual “What I’m Loving Lately” which includes everything I’m reading, eyeing, buying, listening to and learning about. And then there will be a paywall where I will dive deeper into what I want to discuss. If you choose to subscribe, amazing! If not, that’s great too.

I was inspired to get back on the horse after beginning Mel Robbins’ new book. I’m only about 20 pages in but she already has dropped so much wisdom about getting out of your own way. So I’m writing this while the boys are at swimming and Tag is napping. Excuse any typos I miss. I’m 9 weeks postpartum and for the first time in my life I’m ok with making mistakes (I don’t have time to try and be perfect).

As Mel says:

[Maybe you’re] waiting for the right time. Waiting to feel ready or a little less afraid. Waiting for someone to come along and tell you that today is the day to start. The problem with waiting is no one is coming. The only permission you need is your own.

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Learning how to push yourself to take action when you are afraid or full of self-doubt or overwhelmed with excuses is a life skill you can learn. Once you master it, you’ll understand that you can achieve anything through small, consistent moves forward.

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My life didn’t change because of one thing that I did; it changed because of the thousands of morning where I woke up and didn’t feel like getting out of bed, but I 5-4-3-2-1 made myself do it…I woke up every day, and regardless of how I felt, I kept slowly chipping away at my goals for over a decade, a painstakingly slow practice. Some days, all I focused on was just trying to be a little better than I was the day before. Often that’s all you need to do.

I love to write, I have a lot to say, I have very little time, but I’m going to try. Over the next few months, I’m unsure of what my cadence will be. So for those who choose to stick with me, thank you!! I appreciate your patience as I navigate this new chapter as a working mom of three. I know I will work it out and find a cadence that works for me in this season of life. And for the first time, I am giving myself the grace and patience to not have it all figured out before I start. If I waited until things were figured out, it would be decades before I started anything. I have always had the mentality of “just start” rather than completely getting my ducks in a row (other than having a clean kitchen which to be honest is a prerequisite for most of my life).

The last 2 months since Teddy came into our world have been bliss, chaos, joy, challenge, and everything in between.